It is a paradox, an act of momentary idiocy at times to try to attack a core emotion, fulfillment, from the right brain. To plan is unnatural to me. That is exactly why I am unprepared. It is why my work is a pond. A stagnant vibration. At times maybe beautiful. But it stops at an atmosphere.
I am ruled by my emotion. This summer has taught me to gain some control over myself, or rather to allow God to take some of my weight. It is an ongoing battle to give it all over to him. But there is freedom in form. This is the beauty of operatic singing, this is the beauty of mastering an instrument, this is the beauty of great acting, this is the beauty of any technical mastery, this is the beauty of craft.
I believe a plumber can look at the work of another and call him/her an artist. There is an ability to improvise over a melody. A common communication which can then be elaborated upon. Jazz, the great improvised art, stems each piece from a common tune over which elaboration, conversation occurs. The elaboration is our soul in the idea. This is when craft becomes art. For an actor, for many, in repeated work, the soul may not breathe every moment, this is why Richard Digby-Day said that "acting is a craft which we very much hope to be an art". The art doesn't always happen. Our souls still quiver separate from them. We will continue to create. We will continue to love.
When God is the base. The art over the craft is God speaking through us. In a way this entire thing is an analogy for our walk with God and Christ. We have the craft. The inspiration and want to do good, to be different, to please God out of love for him and what he has done for us. Our identity is not lost in this. God is the base, he breathes through it all. He is the reason our art, our lives move. Our singular voices resound from this. Our Father living a single relationship with each of us, speaks through that. We react and move. At times with him and at times without. That is a beauty.
That was brilliant man,
ReplyDeletehonestly nearly teared up from how well your words dance with each other. You're an amazing writer, I'm still trying to find my identity with God.
I recently got a prophecy to "let tomorrow worry about itself," and to worry about nothing, for God had it all planned out for me. He already had it all set up. I believe it is the same for you. Not to say there isn't a process he might put us through, but he has it all planned out. We just need to spend quiet time breathing in sync with him.