Wabi

You will reach a point where you can tell yourself something very powerful.  You can give yourself an ultimatum and be very very friendly with lonely.

The amount of change which can occur in a person in a short period of time is incredible.  Also terrifying.  It is important to remember that this is only an aspect that has changed and it may not be for good.  The faults will always exist.  But they can be smothered and choked.

I am comfortable, now in being alone with myself.  There will be no hand held over mine.  There is me and the morning.  There is the sun slanted through the window glaring under the pillow.  There is a sweater.  Sweat pants and the reality of class uptown in an hour.  There is the grind.  There is God when I wake, God when I work and God when I sleep.  That is sufficient.  That is the oil clearing the cog in my machine.  The grind is a murmur.

With God I will strive to be no cog.